After pretending to be stupid, I cheated [Transmigration Book]

Chapter 44

Xie Yan rushed out of the mortuary gate, and Lao Liu happened to chase after him, and grabbed Xie Yan's wobbly body.

"Mr. Xie, what's the matter with you? Should I call the doctor?"

Xie Yan's face was as white as a piece of paper, and he couldn't breathe evenly, as if his heart would stop beating in the next second. Seeing Xie Yan in such a situation, Lao Liu couldn't help but worry.

Xie Yan grabbed Lao Liu's arm and said, "Go to my grandpa's house, go now!"

Xie Yan's tone could not be refuted, as if he did not agree to him, even if he crawled, he would crawl over.

Lao Liu had no choice but to drive Xie Yan to Grandpa Xie's house.

Xie Yan didn't even change his clothes, he was still wearing a thin hospital gown, and the wound on his hand was still bleeding.

Lao Liu came out of the hospital and persuaded Xie Yan several times to let him bandage him first, and then take him to Grandpa Xie's house.

But Xie Yan couldn't listen to anything, he took out two paper towels, and pulled out the glass shards in his hand. There was still blood and flesh on the glass, but Xie Yan didn't even frown, and threw the glass on the ground Said: "That's all right, let's go."

Lao Liu had no choice but to prepare some disinfectant, and drove Xie Yan to Grandpa Xie's house.

Xie Yan leaned on the back seat all the way. He lost a lot of weight and his cheekbones were bald. He was wearing a loose hospital gown, like an unwanted child huddled in a corner.

His hands were paralyzed on his knees, the blood on them had gradually dried up, but the rolled up flesh and wounds could still be seen.

Lao Liu glanced at it, and his eyes were red again, so he could only speed up the car without saying a word.

On the way, Xie Yan called Fang Zeyu again. Fang Zeyu was stunned for a moment when he received Xie Yan's call, and then timidly asked, "Brother, are you okay..."

Xie Yan did not answer his question, but said in a hoarse and weak voice: "Did you find out what I asked you to check..."

Fang Zeyu immediately replied: "Brother, I have already found someone to investigate. It may take a few days for the events of that year because it is too long ago. You can wait."

"Where is Su Shao..." Xie Yan took a deep breath even to say the last sentence, he asked, "Why can't I find Su Shao..."

Fang Zeyu was silent for a moment, then lowered his voice and said, "Brother, Su Shao disappeared. I suspect that he ran away by himself. As soon as the kidnapping was over, Su Shao disappeared after recording his statement from the police station. I beat him." His phone number and cell phone number have also changed, and he hasn't even returned home."

Xie Yan listened to the call, leaning against the window with his eyes closed, as if he had fallen asleep.

When he heard that Su Shao was missing, he frowned slightly and said, "Go, you must catch Su Shao..." After speaking, he slid his hand down his ear and pressed the power off button.

Grandpa Xie has many houses, one of which is a suburban villa between Mingcheng and Luocheng.

When Xie Yan was on summer vacation when he was young, he often came here to play, and Shen Guangluo often stayed there because he followed his grandfather every day.

Lao Liu's car drove for more than three hours, and Xie Yan was leaning quietly on the back table, as if he was in a coma or fell asleep, even breathing very weakly.

Along the way, Lao Liu kept checking Xie Yan's breathing carefully through the rearview mirror to confirm whether he was still alive.

When it started to get dark at night, the car finally arrived at Grandpa Xie's house.

"Mr. Xie... Mr. Xie..." Old Liu turned his head and called out in a low voice.

Xie Yan frowned, and opened his eyes extremely slowly. Even opening his eyes is extremely difficult for him now.

He looked at Lao Liu hazily, and couldn't tell the difference between dream and reality overnight.

Old Liu said softly, "Here we are, Mr. Xie."

Xie Yan hummed, then turned his head and glanced out the window.

The car had already parked in the garden. Aunt Feng, who had been tidying up the villa for Grandpa Xie, heard the sound of the car, and hurriedly opened the door of the villa and went out to have a look.

When she saw that it was Xie Yanche, her brows became even more joyful, and she rushed out to greet her.

Old Liu opened the car door for Xie Yan. Aunt Feng took two steps forward and saw Xie Yan wearing a blue and white hospital gown. He was so fragile that he seemed to be seriously ill.

Aunt Feng was taken aback, stepped forward and asked, "Mr. Xie, what's wrong! How did this happen! What's wrong with you?"

Older people seldom watch news and TV, so they don't know about Shen Guangluo's accident.

Old Liu looked at Xie Yan, and explained a few words: "Mr. Xie is just too tired recently, and his health is fine."

Hearing this, Aunt Feng breathed a sigh of relief, walked to Xie Yan's side and supported his other shoulder, nagging repeatedly: "It's fine as long as it's okay, I'll wait until Aunt Feng cooks chicken soup for you. You come back, I will make you some delicious Bubu today."

Aunt Feng has been working as a nanny in Xie's family for more than 20 years. She has watched Xie Yan grow up, and she loves Xie Yan like a family member, and her words are also warm.

Suddenly, Aunt Feng glanced into the car again, and asked, "Huh? Where's Guang Luo? Didn't he come back with you?"

Xie Yan's body trembled suddenly.

Old Liu was also flustered, he took a look at Xie Yan, and quickly continued, "Guang Luo is still at home, so he didn't follow." After speaking, he winked desperately at Aunt Feng.

It's a pity that Aunt Feng didn't see his wink at all, and she was still talking to herself: "Oh, I really like that kid Guangluo, he is beautiful and very obedient, and I even planted his favorite food in the backyard. I will wash and give him some strawberries when he comes back, and the strawberries are almost ripe now, so bring some to him when you leave."

Aunt Feng talked all the way into the house, and then walked to the backyard with a basket on her shoulders. After she walked away, Xie Yan threw off Lao Liu's hand with her back foot and rushed up to the second floor.

At the end of the second floor is Grandpa Xie's study.

Since Grandpa Xie passed away, except for one time when Xie Yan helped him pack up his belongings, he never went in again.

Xie Yan remembered that when he was cleaning things for his grandfather, he once saw a crimson photo album. Xie Yan hastily flipped through that photo album, and inside was the photos of Shen Guangluo when he was a child.

When Xie Yan opened the photo album and saw Shen Guangluo, he frowned and immediately closed the photo album, and then casually threw the photo album into some corner.

But where is that photo album now?

Xie Yan kept rummaging in the study, as if he was going crazy, he was eager to find the photo album.

He knew all the answers were in that album.

Xie Yan is a very clean person. In the past, when he picked up something, he would put it back in the original place when he put it down, but now he can't care about anything.

He needs that photo album!

He needs answers!

Xie Yan flipped through all the books on the bookcases all over the wall, and opened them one by one.

No, no, neither!

Xie Yan threw those books on the ground, and after a while, they were all over the floor. He kept searching, and the wound on his hand was torn open again, and blood flowed out, staining every book. superior.

But those are not.

Xie Yan felt that he was about to be driven crazy.

Back then, the photo album was right in front of his eyes, and he could often see it, but why can't he find it now!

It seems that everything is like playing hide and seek with him, playing with him!

Xie Yan rummaged through the bookcases on the entire wall, but still couldn't find anything.

He sat on the ground slumped, pulled his hair, kept looking around, and said in a low voice, "Where are you... Where are you..."

Then Xie Yan's eyes froze, and he saw a red book on the foot of the bookcase under the bookcase.

Xie Yan rushed over with both hands and feet, pinching the corner of the book with his fingers, trying to pull it out, but the weight of the cabinet was too heavy, he couldn't do it after a couple of pumps, so he clenched his teeth, almost using his hands I pulled out the book with all my might.

The force used was too strong, the moment the notebook was pulled out, Xie Yan took several steps backwards, and finally fell to the ground.

At this time, the large cabinet in front lost its support, shook twice, and fell straight forward.

boom!

The loud noise resounded through the entire villa, and even the books on the ground jumped.

The cabinet fell right next to Xie Yan's feet, and it would have hit Xie Yan a little further.

But Xie Yan didn't seem to be able to feel all this, he put the red photo album on his knees, and approached the photo album with trembling fingers.

At this time, there was a knock on the door of the study, and Lao Liu and Aunt Feng's anxious and sharp voices sounded outside the door: "Mr. Xie, how are you? What happened!"

"Master, what's going on inside!"

"Master, do you have anything to do!"

"Don't come in!" Xie Yan roared, his voice was very hoarse, but he penetrated the gate with a strong deterrent force.

There was no sound outside, and the surroundings were quiet for an instant, only Xie Yan's breathing could be heard.

Xie Yan stretched out his fingers to open the photo album, but just as his hand was about to touch the photo album, he found that his fingertips were covered with blood, so Xie Yan immediately rubbed his fingers on his clothes twice to wipe off the blood on his fingers After being clean, I carefully opened the first page of the photo album.

The first page of the album is a group photo of a man and a woman holding a baby.

The female is young and beautiful, while the male has a calm and handsome temperament. The appearance of the two of them is five or six points similar to Shen Guangluo.

And the baby in the middle is wearing a little yellow hat, wearing bright yellow overalls, with a chubby face, big eyes and still crying.

Xie Yan looked at the photo album and suddenly smiled.

This is Shen Guangluo...

He really loved to cry since he was a child.

Xie Yan's finger lightly brushed Shen Guangluo's cheek in the photo, and then his finger stopped at the corner of Shen Guangluo's mouth. Xie Yan's eyes suddenly widened, and the smile on his face suddenly disappeared.

He held the photo album and looked at it carefully, his eyes almost burst open.

impossible.

This is impossible.

There must be flying dust on the corner of Shen Guangluo's mouth.

Xie Yan quickly turned over this page, panting heavily, and continued to turn back. In each of the following photos, Shen Guangluo grew up little by little.

When he was one year old, he looked like crying while eating a big watermelon.

When I was two years old, I fell down when I was learning to walk, and my face was covered with snot and tears while sitting on the ground crying.

When he was three years old, he cried because his father robbed him of a lollipop.

When I was four years old, I was punished to stand because I could not recite ancient poems, and then I stood at the corner of the table and cried while reciting.

When he was five years old, Shen Guangluo fell down in a mud puddle and returned home dejectedly with tears in his eyes.

When he was six years old, Shen Guangluo's parents divorced... In the photos, Shen Guangluo was not crying, and there were very few photos of him when he was six years old.

At the age of seven... Shen Guangluo became a fool that year, and he didn't even have a single photo.

……

Xie Yan flipped through each photo, and he saw that Shen Guangluo's appearance in each photo was slowly maturing, gradually transforming from cute to handsome, but the only thing that remained unchanged was the mole on the corner of his mouth.

The more Shen Guangluo grew up, the more obvious it became.

Xie Yan felt that his whole body was chilling, even though the heating in the room was turned on like summer, but the coldness all over his body seemed to come from the bottom of his heart, it was going to freeze his whole body, and his whole body was so cold They were shaking, as if they were going to freeze to death in the next second.

Xie Yan picked up the photo album, stumbled to the desk, turned on the lamp on the desk, lay down on the desk, and carefully looked at the mole on the corner of Shen Guangluo's mouth.

Xie Yan looked like a blind man, his eyes were very close to the photo album.

He scratched the mole on the corner of Shen Guangluo's mouth with his finger, and he tried to think that it might just be a dirty mark, and he only needed to rub it with his hands to get rid of it.

But no matter how hard Xie Yan rubbed it, he couldn't rub it off.

Xie Yan rubbed and rubbed, and the album was dripping with water.

When his fingers touched the water, Xie Yan was stunned for a moment, wondering where the water came from.

Later, Xie Yan found out that it was all water dripping from his eyes, and he couldn't stop, dropping drops onto Shen Guangluo's face.

Xie Yan gradually stopped what he was doing, holding the photo album with both hands, staring at Shen Guangluo's crying face when he was a child on the photo album in a daze.

At this moment, Xie Yan's cell phone rang.

Xie Yan subconsciously connected the phone without speaking.

Fang Zeyu's voice came from the other side of the phone: "Hey, brother, I found out what happened back then, Shen Guangluo... It is true that he was also in that big explosion back then, and everything he had was the same as the one who saved you." The people match, and... I heard from the old nanny of the Shen family that Shen Guangluo was seriously injured in the explosion, his brain was injured, and he became a fool when he came back..."

"Hey... Hey! Brother, are you listening?"

"elder brother……"

Xie Yan smiled and hung up the phone.

He laughed loudly, and kept staring at the photo album, as if he was laughing at why Shen Guangluo cried so much, but Xie Yan smiled and cried too, with tears all over his face.

Xie Yan remembered what Shen Guangluo said to him last...

With the gunshot that accompanied that day, Shen Guangluo stood in front of Xie Yan, and the next second, Shen Guangluo's painful face changed shape, and he fell into Xie Yan's arms all at once.

He was lying in Xie Yan's arms, still looking at Xie Yan's expression with a pair of sparkling eyes.

Xie Yan could see that Shen Guangluo's eyes gradually began to loosen, but in the end Shen Guangluo raised a hand to touch Xie Yan's cheek, and said, "Don't be afraid..."

Even at the end, when it was very painful, Shen Guangluo would still say "don't be afraid" to Xie Yan first.

From when Shen Guangluo was seven years old to when Shen Guangluo was 23 years old, nothing has changed...

And what did he say to Shen Guangluo!What have you done!

He once said to Shen Guangluo: "Shen Guangluo, you are not worthy of being compared with Su Shao."

"Su Shao almost died trying to save me back then, but you Shen Guangluo, you are just a liar who swindles money, what qualifications do you have to compete with Su Shao."

"If you want me to let you go, you can withdraw from the "Dream of Stars" draft, then quit the entertainment industry, and give No.1 to Su Shao, and I will let you go."

"Shen Guangluo, look at your current appearance, a fool, love me? Are you worthy?"

……

Xie Yan slapped himself hard twice, the sound was extremely loud in the study, but Xie Yan felt no pain at all.

Now, as long as he thought of what he had said, he wanted to kill himself.

Shen Guangluo became a fool because of him, because he saved him, all because of saving him!That young master of the Shen family who was clever and should be held in the palm of thousands of people turned into a fool, and then the Shen family also lost.

In the next few years, Xie Yan has been looking for the boy who saved him back then.

Until one day when Su Shao came, Su Shao himself told Xie Yan that he had saved him. All the signs and the scars on Su Shao's body were proof of this, and Xie Yan believed it.

Su Shao is the boy who saved Xie Yan back then.

When the boy stood by Xie Yan's side, Xie Yan made up his mind to protect him and repay him twice for saving his life.

So he treats Su Shao well.

But Xie Yan never imagined that the boy who really saved him stayed by his side all the time, circling around him every day, but Xie Yan turned a blind eye to it, and said to Shen Guangluo time and time again—you are not worthy!

The more Xie Yan thought about it, the more it hurt, he felt like his head was about to split open.

Xie Yan looked down at the photo album, feeling extremely ridiculous.

Shen Guangluo lived in Grandpa Xie's house when he was a teenager, and his childhood photos were placed in Grandpa Xie Yan's cabinet, and Grandpa often took them out to look at them.

Back then, Grandpa Xie was wearing presbyopic glasses and photo albums and would always wave to Xie Yan and say, "Xie Yan, let's see how cute your brother was when he was young."

Xie Yan turned around and left every time.

He was not interested in Shen Guangluo at all.

If Xie Yan had been a little more patient at that time, he would have walked over to take a look at the photos of Shen Guangluo when he was seven or eight years old.

He will definitely be able to find out the clues, and everything will be different.

But Xie Yan didn't.

For more than ten years, he has never seen it.

Xie Yan buried his head on the photo album, his shoulders shrugged as if he was constantly laughing, but in the end he could only sob uncontrollably, and finally he choked up and said: "What should I do... What should I do..."

Three days later, Shen Guangluo was going to be cremated.

Xie Yan seemed to have gone crazy in the hospital, preventing everyone around him from touching Shen Guangluo's body, but his absurd behavior by himself still couldn't stand up to everyone.

Bo Wentong and others pulled Xie Yan away, and Li Lunqing stuck a sedative on Xie Yan's neck.

Then Xie Yan felt more and more dizzy, and he fell to the ground, watching the person in front of him take Shen Guangluo away.

never come back.

Xie Yan raised his hand, wanting to step forward to stop it, but he couldn't even do such a simple thing as raising his hand, let alone stop Shen Guangluo's body.

Li Lunqing took the injection, sat next to Xie Yan, and asked, "Why don't you let Shen Guangluo go?"

What Li Lunqing said was very general, but Xie Yan understood what he meant by "go".

Xie Yan felt his eyelids getting dizzy, and his voice began to be intermittent: "If Shen Guangluo loses his body, he will never come back..."

Li Lunqing was silent for a while, then he stood up and said indifferently: "Shen Guangluo is dead, he will never come back."

These words seemed to take out the last breath of Xie Yan's air, and he leaned back in the chair drowsily and lost consciousness.

When Xie Yan woke up, Shen Guangluo had already turned into a small box of powder.

Xie Yan held on to that box, and even wanted to keep that box of small powder for himself, but he was told that he has no legal relationship with Shen Guangluo now.

Xie Yan and Shen Guangluo are no longer husband and wife, and are no longer brothers. Legally speaking, Xie Yan has no right to get anything that belongs to Shen Guangluo.

Even the last bit of hope was erased, and there was nothing left for Xie Yan.

Seven days later, it was Shen Guangluo's funeral.

Since Shen Guangluo's death was too sensational, his funeral was held grandly.

In the largest auditorium, everything was decorated in black and white, and many stars came to mourn, from morning to night, for three days.

Fans outside the funeral hall also stood guard for three nights in the cold wind.

Everyone knew that Shen Guangluo died to save Xie Yan, and all eyes were fixed on Xie Yan.

Everyone was waiting to see how Xie Yan would come over crying to mourn his savior.

But Xie Yan didn't come, and never showed up from the beginning to the end.

For a while, Xie Yan was scolded on the Internet, and the words were very vicious.

"Why doesn't Xie Yan die?"

"Guang Li really saved a white-eyed wolf!"

"A person like Xie Yan should go to the [-]th floor of hell. This is the first time I have seen such a heartless person!"

……

After the funeral on the third day was over, Fang Zeyu brought some food to Xie Yan's house, opened the door, and a smell of alcohol and cigarettes mixed in the room filled his face, and Fang Zeyu couldn't help but choke. Stop coughing.

He hurried into the house.

The room was dark, and the curtains were tightly drawn. Even though it was noon, the people in the room lived in darkness.

Fang Zeyu opened the curtains slightly, and he saw the drunk and unconscious Xie Yan lying on the coffee table.

Fang Zeyu sighed, and walked over to clean up the wine bottles in the room.

I don't know how many days it is, since the day Shen Guangluo passed away, Xie Yan hasn't had a good meal, and he relies on drinking and smoking every day to continue his life.

He didn't see anyone, he didn't go out, he didn't do anything.

The only thing to do is to be in a daze, drink, smoke, and fall asleep after drinking too much.

Fang Zeyu came every day to deliver meals to his brother, but every time he entered the room, he saw Xie Yan drunk and turned into a puddle of mud.

In the past few days, when Fang Zeyu took the key to open the door, he was afraid that he would see his brother's body when he entered the door.

Fang Zeyu walked up to Xie Yan and called, "Brother...Brother...I brought you a meal, get up and eat."

Xie Yan remained motionless.

Fang Zeyu's heart tightened, and he was about to push Xie Yan's shoulder when Xie Yan's alarm clock rang.

Xie Yan woke up as soon as he heard the alarm clock. He moved his shoulders, moved his neck and straightened his upper body.

The strong light outside the window suddenly shone into his eyes, Xie Yan squinted his eyes very uncomfortable, he covered his eyes with his hands and said to Fang Zeyu: "Pull the curtains... hurry..."

Xie Yan smelled of alcohol all over.

Fang Zeyu had no choice but to close the curtains first, then watched Xie Yan stand up unsteadily, walked to Xiaoju's dinner plate, and prepared food and water for Xiaoju.

After Xie Yan put away the dinner plate, Xiaoju poked her head out from under the sofa timidly, and ran out to eat.

The only thing Xie Yan has now is Xiaoju.

Even Xiaoju was snatched from Xie Yan by threatening Bo Wentong.

Now only those who prepare food for Xiaoju can call Xie Yan out of the wine, the others can't call Xie Yan even if the sky falls.

As soon as the curtains were drawn, darkness returned.

Xie Yan sat back on the sofa, took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it.

Mars is particularly conspicuous in the room, and will definitely illuminate Xie Yan's cheeks.

Xie Yan has been haggard a lot these days, his beard hasn't been shaved, showing black stubble, his face is sallow, the dark circles under his eyes are dark and heavy, and his mouth is dry and cracked.

Xie Yan is 25 years old this year. Before that, Xie Yan looked handsome and dressed younger. He would even be considered a college student under 20 years old.

But now Xie Yan looks like a sloppy uncle in his 40s or [-]s.

"Brother, I brought you food, don't smoke." Fang Zeyu said while unpacking the food he brought.

Xie Yan sat on the ground with one knee raised, his hand holding a cigarette and drooping on his knees, his whole body exuded a decadent aura.

Xie Yan ignored Fang Zeyu's words, but pointed to the wine cabinet in the kitchen and said, "Go get the wine."

Fang Zeyu frowned and remained motionless.

Xie Yan closed his eyes tiredly and repeated again: "Get the wine, if you don't go get it, I'll do it yourself."

Knowing Xie Yan's character, Fang Zeyu sighed, stood up and went to the kitchen to get a bottle of low-alcohol foreign wine, and poured it for Xie Yan.

Xie Yan picked up the glass, watched the liquid in the glass sway, and drank all the wine in one breath. The strong wine suddenly entered his throat and he was choked, and he started coughing non-stop.

"Cough cough cough..."

Fang Zeyu immediately began to pour water for Xie Yan again in a hurry, and when Fang Zeyu finally brought the water, Xie Yan had already finished another glass.

Xie Yan coughed and his eyes started to turn red, and then he raised his head and looked at the other party with red eyes and said, "Let's drink together."

After Xie Yan finished speaking, he poured Fang Zeyu a glass, but kept his eyes fixed on the wall in front of him.

Fang Zeyu looked back at the wall.

The walls are full of pictures.

Xie Yan put all of Shen Guangluo's photos into an album, and hung them on the wall of the living room.

From when Shen Guangluo was one year old to when he grew up, as long as Xie Yan had photos, all of them were posted.

But even though Xie Yan and Shen Guangluo have lived together for more than ten years, he still has too few photos.

Xie Yan couldn't even hang half of the wall with photos of Shen Guangluo who lived to be 23 years old.

Fang Zeyu looked at his brother like this, and the pain and discomfort that had been suppressed in his heart for many days also burst out. The corners of his eyes were red, and he picked up the glass and drank the wine.

The two of them were silent, and they didn't know how many drinks they drank. Xie Yan's alcoholic energy from last time hadn't subsided, and after a few drinks, his eyes began to blur.

Xie Yan poured himself another glass of wine, lit a cigarette, looked at the white smoke rising from his fingertips, and said in a hoarse voice, "No one has treated me well in my life..."

Xie Yan's voice suddenly sounded like a stone thrown into a deep lake.

His voice was too low and hoarse, too far away, as if he was going to leave with Shen Guangluo in a while.

Fang Zeyu stopped holding the wine glass, the tears in his eyes popped up suddenly because of his brother's sudden words, and Xie Yan's face was so wet that he could hardly see clearly.

Fang Zeyu hurriedly lowered his head, his eyes suddenly became dazzling, and he listened to his brother's continuation.

"No one has ever been sincere to me." Xie Yan looked at the white smoke on his fingertips and sighed: "Even my trusted grandfather is actually guarding against me."

"Shen Guangluo was nice to me before... I thought he was a fool..."

"A fool doesn't know what is sincere or not, and whether he likes it or not. I think he must treat me like a kitten or puppy. If he likes me today, he can like someone else tomorrow."

"So why should I be nice to a fool? Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..."

Xie Yan couldn't stop laughing, his shoulders shrugged, his voice became hoarse when he smiled, and then he started coughing, and finally stopped coughing, Xie Yan turned his head and touched his eyes fiercely , picked up the glass and took a sip of the wine and continued.

"Later I knew that Shen Guangluo was not a fool, so I began to worry about why he lied to me."

"I hate cheating and betrayal the most! Why did he do this! I hate him so much that I want to kill him!"

Xie Yan smashed the wine glass in his hand on the ground, as if he wanted to throw out all the anger towards Shen Guangluo.

Then he took two sharp breaths, panting violently in his chest, and Xie Yan, who had a heartache, immediately shrank back. He hugged his knees tightly, buried his head in the knees, grabbed his hair with his hands, and his voice became weaker. Annoyed and intense.

"Gradually I found that I couldn't do anything. It seemed that something had changed, but I didn't want to admit it! I didn't want to accept it!"

"Until that day, when I went to visit my grandpa's grave, I wondered whether Shen Guangluo had any intentions and whether he still remembered the anniversary of his grandfather's death, so I waited, I waited for him for twelve hours! A full twelve hours ! I waited from morning till night!"

"I thought he wouldn't come, but here he is."

"When I saw him at the time, I felt that nothing was important. I suddenly didn't want to care about cheating or not, whether I hated or not..."

"I want to have a word with him, I think...I also want to see him smile at me...I want to say...I might start to like him..."

"But why don't I have another chance."

"The person who died...why not me."

"Are you saying that Shen Guangluo is taking revenge on me... all the bad things I did to him in the past ten years or so, all at once..."

Xie Yan scratched his hair, almost going crazy.

The pain of so many days was about to crush him to death. He couldn't bear it anymore, and he really couldn't bear it anymore.

He lives by alcohol every day, Xie Yan can only lie to himself when he is drunk, occasionally with better luck, he can still dream of Shen Guangluo.

Shen Guangluo would still smile at him in his dreams, everything was the same as back then.

But when he woke up, those pains intensified on him again, and all the happiness was fake.

Some people say that time can forget everything, Xie Yan also tried to believe this sentence before, but now he feels that these are farts!

These days he thought about Shen Guangluo so much that he was about to die.

Every day that passes, his pain will increase by a hundred times. If heartache can really kill people, he would have died long ago.

Seeing Xie Yan like this, Fang Zeyu cried so hard that he could hardly speak, he could only comfort him with a clumsy mouth: "Brother...your life was saved by Shen Guangluo with all his life...you have to live well ...You can't have anything..."

When Xie Yan heard this sentence, he immediately began to nod his head: "I know...I know...I'm not dead yet..."

"But living is too painful...too difficult..."

"What should I do……"

"Who will save me..."

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-01-2518:45:57~2021-01-2523:57:17期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: Lao Wan will definitely get rich by one;

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